a wife of noble character

I am really sad that Jenn and Eunice both aren't coming to Chapter Camp :( I love how insecure I feel just at the thought of not being with them for two weeks. Spent some time thinking and reflecting on short talk with Eunice earlier. Thanks for speaking truth into me Dad.

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What do I see in him?
I am distracting him, and I am distracting myself.
The best thing I could do for him is give him space and time to grow.
I am still learning myself, recovering from past wounds, beginning this journey walking besides You and drawing closer to You.
I know I'm not ready God. I know that this isn't the time.
I pray that You really grow me and continue molding me.
I want to remain your precious, beautiful daughter.
Lord I want to lift up all my feelings to You.
God may I save and preserve my heart for You.
I want to wholeheartedly love You and only You.
Help me guard my heart God.
Help me save it in its entirety Lord. May I not waste it on worldly things.
God help me focus on You. Help me seek You.
Please keep my intentions pure and centered on You.
Teach me how to love him as a sister.
Help me see You.
Help me turn You every time I want to turn back to him.
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I'm thankful that You revealed to me some answers.
Entering dorm ministry next year, being in a position of leadership, is to become a living testament of God. That is turning to YOU for everything. Through prayer, scripture, sermons, the church, fellowship. God I'm just so excited that I will be in this position, but also scared at the same time. I know all my actions will be scrutinized, but that will hold me accountable to continue seeking after YOU and YOU only. God may You just help me transition to that as the school year winds down, as Chapter Camp and summer approach.

Lord. Please help me become a true woman of God.

from The Wife of Noble Character
She is clothed with strength and dignity; she can laugh at the days to come. She speaks with wisdom, and faithful instruction is on her tongue. Charm is deceptive, and beauty is fleeting;but a woman who fears the Lord is to be praised.
- Proverbs 31: 25-26, 30